Blast it.

I said it, I admit to myself
I said those words
as I thought of you

I wondered what your answer
would be if I asked
if those words were true

I said it in my heart
I don’t know what I was thinking
but I know I said it

It can’t be, it’s hidden
with 7 to 10 and 10 to 12
different locks

and strong bonds
to keep me from unlocking those ideas
and hurting with their consequence

yet I know that you
have an odd way of taking
and changing what I try to hide

and I don’t know but I see
the air glow in strange shades
when I think of holding you

and I do know
that it’s music to me when you talk
about the most absurd of things

and those words crossed my mind
and I wonder if I can repeat them
when faced with you

Blast it.