Too Much Going on in My Brain

There’s much too much going on in my brain tonight.

It’s 5:33am on Sunday, January 28, 2018. I’m sick with some sort of fluid in my lungs and I’m on a steroid treatment to fight it for the first time in two years.

They used to give me steroids to fight ear infections. They haven’t been doing that since it’s a little over a year since I had tubes put in both ears to help fix a lot of the problems I’ve had my whole life with my hearing and constant sinus infections. The tubes pretty much do the job of keeping things open so there’s usually no need for steroids.

This time, though, I had a scare. Pretty big scare. I wasn’t feeling well a week ago and was so zonked that last weekend, just downloading the files for and making a Windows 10 backup thumb drive was a two day event. (I’m *still* not fully back up and running — when almost everyone knows it’s a usually half day event to get everything reinstalled depending on bandwidth.)

Monday night, with my lungs just absolutely making it hard to breathe, I had heart burn from an ill timed Burger King dinner. I didn’t know that as I woke up at 11:30PM with my heart racing out of my chest, chest pains, total shortness of breath and thinking I was in the middle of a heart attack.

It scared the hell out of me, to be honest. I knew it wasn’t a real heart attack, and figured out the combination, but at the same time, trying to get calm by reading or trying to relax was made worse because anything I read that gave me stress (the current expose book about our president) or the act of lying down (since my lungs were full of crap), amplified the problems.

I ended up taking two sick days this week and being zonked out of my mind most days… until the steroids kicked in.

I’m sick but I have energy. Soooo much energy that I forget and I pay for it later. I spent most of today re-ripping all of the DVDs and Blu-rays I own so I can stream them on my personal network (an alternative to Netflix when our internet bandwidth is low). At the same time I was redoing artwork for work, consolidating backup folders, reinstalling Windows programs and watching TV.

BeforeĀ  I knew it, it was 11PM and I had so much energy that going to bed was difficult. I always wake up during the night, I can’t sleep more than a handful of hours at a time, so the later I’m up, the sooner I’m back up. I crashed at Midnight and now I’m up, cats fed, thinking about things and entirely distracting myself again.

And thinking about this and thinking about that and too much going on in my brain ends this entry as it began.

Sigh.

-Jim