Sunday Morning Thoughts

It's 1 AM and I thought I'd return to blogging before I settled down for the night. Bubbagump looks to be settling in over on top of my jacket and my backpack. That strange little guy. He won't sleep on a bag or a coat unless he knows that I've been wearing or using it lately. I've tried it with all sorts of things over the years and he knows which ones I've used every time. Crazy boy.

I just turned off SNL. Kirsten Dundst was on and, well, you all know my feelings about Kirsten Dundst. LOL. Next week it's the wild dreams about Natalie Portman as the Senator from Naboo in Episode 2 ... okay I'm done dreaming. Moopie is probably going to come in and hit me any time now lol.

In other news, I'm in the middle of realizing the long time person that I love, the one that I thought I was going to end up with and spend the rest of my life with, isn't the one. It's hard, but you know, it's been a long time coming. Being single again after three years is gonna be rough as well, but we all have to do what we have to do in this life. Her choice was made long ago and I'm just dumb enough to realize it now. Don't hate her, still friends with her, heart really isn't broken. I mean in a way I'm happy with the choice she's made. It's her one chance at this and she has to take it now. I'm down that it came at the expense of our relationship but, know what? After everything this year, I'm just sorta numb to the whole thing.

I actually feel like the French guy in the Americanized bastardization of a classic Japanese Horror film that you might know as the American version of Godzilla. He was a normal no-named guy who just happened to be sorta numb to everything. His squad dies? Eh, moment of passing, but there's still a freaking monster on the loose to kill. Monster almost steps on the car? Eh, moment of fear, then drive like a maniac out of there. Monster dies? Eh, don't stick around for the fancy shot of the heroes posing as the camera fades, just go on to the next job.

That's what I feel like. I could whine on and on about everything from this year. I'm not going to take the time to do it. I still have a job to do, I still have people I care about, and no matter what, I'm here for the duration. I'll find my destiny one day and if I'm not going to find her, then you know what? I'll look back upon my life and see all the time I didn't waste sitting on my ass whining about it.

This week is one year at reallycoolsite.org, I believe, I'll have to look at my billing statement to be sure. Other than it means I'll be paying $8 or so to run this site per month, it also means that we've been around for over a year here. So thank you for taking time out of your life to read my silly stories. To those who asked, yes, there's a pay off coming about Martin's butt. Just give me time ...

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Later that Morning

Today is Mother's day in the U.S. and my mom decided to go spend the day mystery shopping with my God Mother instead of taking part in the plans that she didn't know my dad and I had for her. Well, we didn't know we had plans for her either until about 8 PM last night. Our plans were to have me get up early, go get her flowers and a present, then surprise her with it and either take her to lunch or get takeout from somewhere for lunch.

Instead ...

I ask what she's doing today and she says that she and my God Mother (who is staying with us for the weekend), are going to be gone all day.

So by 9 PM, I'm in a car going to Wal-Mart to go get her flowers. I'll say Wal-Mart is strange on that note. Since we're so remote, Wal-Mart seems to be where all the kids hang out on Saturday nights. The place was seriously packed. I got my mom a hanging flowered plant (I hate buying "dead" flowers), and a couple of video games for her computer. I also picked up a transformer for my nephew and a YOUNG Obi-Wan figure for my niece (she wants to marry YOUNG Obi-Wan), since they're in the middle of moving to Washingtong State from Indianapolis (don't get me started), and these will be waiting for them when they get there.

Got home and gave my mom the flowers and she was more impressed with the Majhong Master 2 software lol. Oh, typical, but that's how things go around here. :) At least they're gone today, my dad is downstairs doing whatever, and I have peace and quiet for the day. I can go back to work and be my myself. It doesn't get better than this! :)

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Another Update

As you can see, I'm in the mood to write today. I'm watching the end of the 5th Element on DVD and then I'm going to catch the end of a trading spaces rerun before my afternoon nap. It's dark, it's dismal, it's raining and I sorta like it. I get more done when it's dark out and frankly, with the way things are going lately, I'll probably have my most productive day this week after a good nap this afternoon.

I started working out this week. Three days of weight training, four days of cardio workout. I even bought a workout bench to try to get myself in some shape. I spent yesterday afternooon putting the darn thing together, and frankly, I KNOW I didn't inherit any of my dad's mechanical skills, but I did get it together, that's what's important. I skipped today's cardio because I tried out the machine and went a little crazy. I know I'm going to hear about that but it's a one day only thing.

The bench makes crunches a lot easier. I can do leg curls too on it too. I had instructions on how to do them without a machine before, but you know what? I don't know how anyone could balance a dumbbell between their feet to do it. Thanks to my best friend and to Moopie for telling me to get this machine. Makes that part of the workout a lot easier.

So far it's paying off. I mean the pants I'm wearing now are usually tight and hard to zip up. Well, now they're not. I mean it's not a dramatic change, but it was like after a week of working out and being active, they just feet a little looser than before. That's all I'm after anyway. I want to be back down to a 32 waist on day. I can settle for a pure 34, but I don't want to be stuck at a 35/36 waist that I am now.

I had a blood pressure checkup this week and I'm okay. He doesn't want to see me for another year. So that's good, though I gained 4 pounds this year and I never gain weight. I mean I could tell I was getting a little chubby. My grandpa noticed it last time he was here. In the Grandpa way of hitting me in the stomach and going "oh, you're getting a gut!" So working out has been on my mind.

I also kind of want to be in shape for my Canada trip this summer. My deal on that is that I'm already geek enough. It's a strike against me already. I don't want these people to remember me as being chubby as well. So I'm working out and I'm sort of glad I'm doing it. Now if I can keep with it, I think I'll eventually be down to that 32 waist. That's all I care about. Not going down to the size 28 waist I was in high school. LOL that would be a dream.

I was 130 lbs. from 6th grade to 9th grade, then grew a bit and was 150 lbs. when I graduated high school. Was 170-180 for most of college, then, well, I haven't topped 210 as of yet, but if I wasn't careful ... okay not going there. It's hard because both my parents are big, I mean my dad goes from 270-320 on average (a lot due to water weight gain due to one of his conditions), and I know I don't ever want to be that big. I don't look the weight I am (some people think I'm normal), but I feel it, and that's one feeling I don't want to have any more.

On that note, might blog one more time today. Then who knows? I'm off to watch Trading Spaces.

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