I had a headache so I went to bed early. Of course, since it’s gotten colder out last night was the night that I started having horribly vivid dreams. We’ll start backwards since the last one woke me up.
I had a dream that I was friends with a girl in high school. In the dream, we knew each other from high school. We hung out a lot and when she moved away I was heart broken. Then my parents decided to move and coincidentally, it’s to the same area as she moved. She’s there to greet me on the first day of school. It’s only been a couple of weeks but she loves the school and she’s found acceptance. We had been nerds and suddenly she’s really popular with all the kids. Great for her. She’s starting to bloom.
Since she’s getting popular there’s a million different things she wants to do and she takes me along to help out. We’re getting really close as we’re doing stupid after school activities. I’m helping out with bake sales and drama clubs, helping her recite lines, that sort of crap. Thinking that it was great to be doing everything one on one with this girl and falling hopelessly in love with her at the same time …
So of course there’s a school wide assembly for everyone in our grade. They’re going to hear from the candidates running for class president then they’re going to announce a semester-long pairs project. She’s sitting in front of me with one of her friends, I’m sitting behind her. We’re all sitting in those crappy old 70’s era plastic chairs with steel legs. She and her friend go up to give speeches, she’s great, she thanks me as her biggest supporter. Then they announce the class project …
3 choices here:
1) partners pick someone to be married to and they spend the semester doing the traditional marriage group project.
2) partners are heavily into debt; one is the banker, the other the debtor and they work a way out of debt.
3) Mystery prize
There’s also a twist — whomever catches the “randomly thrown” key chain gets to pick first and his or her partner of choice can’t say no.
Everyone’s on edge. I remember she stood on her chair, and everyone followed suit. They throw the key chain into the crowd and her chair snaps. I grab her out of the air before she falls. I can smell her perfume and she smiles at me in surprise as everyone around her falls. It’s great, I’m a hero … and she has the key chain! My heart is racing.
She looks at me and thanks me for everything and says that there’s no one more in the world that she wants to be partners with and she lifts her arm and extends it out to make her choice and … she grabs hold of the big preppy guy next to me. The top jock, king of the school guy. Not me.
This is when I almost wake myself up going “where the @#$# did that son of a @#$#$ come from?”
I’m pissed in the dream, but of course, I never left on. I don’t know anyone in the school, I quickly realize, so #1 is out. #2 is assigned and #3 is a mystery that only losers take. She’s all happy in front of me with her new man and she asks me what I’m going to pick (and somewhere I should have just stormed off), and I say something stupid in a mumble as I go over my options. I can’t stand to see her at this point and decide, what the hell, to go with #3.
I tell her, and she’s horrified, and I wake up pissed off.
Who the hell was that dream girl to pick the wrong guy AND to give me crap for my choice after she just broke my @#$#ing heart? LOL.
The earlier dream had me working in an office. Same theme here. I do 60 hours a week. Bust my ass for months, work harder than everyone else. Then layoffs come. Some girl reads the names on the list and says “obviously these last three aren’t here, since I don’t see them.” I see my name on the list, I say that’s me and she says “Oh, sorry, are you new?” Yes, she they didn’t even know who the hell I was come layoff time.
I love my dreams. I really do.
I’m up now. I’m going to go shower. I have a headache. The cats are fighting, and it’s much too cold for anyone’s own good today.
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