Today has been kind of overcast and it’s been raining on and off. I woke up and finally took the bath I put off yesterday. There’s something about a long hot bath first thing in the morning that puts my mind at ease and really gets me started to … well being half awake all day.
Stumbled through morning shift, waited for the Schwan’s frozen food guy to make to come with the first of his twice monthly visits, then took a nap for an hour. Got up, said hi to Stef, went back to bed for another 40 minutes or so and now I’m getting ready for an evening shift where I don’t want to do anything more than climb right back into bed and sleep some more.
Most of my friends are gone this week so there’s no compelling reason to keep me glued to the computer. The only one on right now, for example, is gone or AFK or off having a life. I probably won’t IM her anyway since our friendship took an odd twist a while back and I still don’t know what to say to her or how to talk to her like we used to. That’s the killer thing, I would love to live in the past. I always remember how things used to be and I don’t know if I have the strength any more to cling to those old dreams. On the other hand, I don’t have the energy to adapt right now so maybe it’s better that we’re just silent. Though I miss her, it’s just weird, until I work out some stuff we’ll probably carry on like this. I can’t express how sad that makes me feel.
Ugg. Goose bumps. It’s really cooling down outside. We’re supposed to have storms all day tomorrow so I was lucky to have finished the wood yesterday. Stef wanted to know if I’m going to keep up the workouts now that I’ve pretty much thrown my body into a state of being, well, less flabby. I don’t know yet. Easiest way to doom something is to announce it to the world, so I’m going to hold off for a while before making up my mind one way or the other.
Just a couple more days until vacation … a couple more days …
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